I can't seem to get the sound of crunching bones out of my head, my heart is taking on one hell of a beating.
I've learned the grass next door is no more greener than mine. The grass next door,
It's just as dead as mine.
I could walk a mile in an endless meadow and see no change in my shadow.
Maybe someone, someday,
Will like my thoughts more than I do. But is it possible they know the meanings more than I do?
Agony,
It's being who we really are.
Our lies and selfish desires,
We put them before our friends.
Or maybe that's just us.
This long,
Empty, winding road goes way uphill.
But don't you get tired going that way? The path downhill is so much easier.
Much less effort to fall. We all know this. And the cracked, and crumbling bridge at the bottom, barely can hold all your our worries.
Fall further.
It's the question that makes me think of you.
Because I use to be happy.
Can it get any worse?
I'll go through the carpet of hell and in though the roof of another dimensoin's heaven.
But as my luck goes, I'll hear those golden bells drift away.
Because:
This long,
Winding road goes way uphill,
Though it's so much easier to fall.
I think I'll fall.
We all know that losing you was an unfixable mistake of mine.
I've always had a hard time letting go of hope.
This is why I hold on, I won't forget your smile.
It melted my world away. There was only you.
I've hit bottom.
There's nowhere to go unless I float back up to the surface.
This long,
Empty, winding road goes way uphill,
Though it's so much easier to fall.
I think I'll fall again.
Because I use to be so happy, and now I don't think it can get any worse.
Can it get any worse if...
If,
once I wake up in a bed of soft white sheets, you won't be there.
will I die of lonliness if you aren't?
It would have been so much easier to fall, but I'm crawling back to reality.
Way uphill.
My legs hurt, and I'm out of breath.
But my eyes are open, and I'm cuddled up next to you.
I wonder what I would do if I actually lost you.
2:47 a.m. - 2005-04-01
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