You came into my life out of nowhere. This thing I feel for you is so complex; it�s nothing like the movies or stories of love, but I want it. Something that�s between us, in the way that we�re constantly feeling, reminds you of something that�s right. We�re playing a game of chance, and you�re taking these moments like pills. To ease away the reality of what�s coming to be, you�re drinking them down like they�re cheap alcohol. Despite the bitter taste of an upcoming goodbye, you swallow down each instant to forget our impending departure. I�d be inclined to be yours for the taking, a moment, a memory, and part of this terrible mess that you�re making... but me, I�m the catalyst.
If you said love is a simple chemical reaction, can�t say I�d agree, because my chemical left me a beautiful disaster... still love is all I perceive.
It�s a match, a contest of happenstance and I�m taking each moment like a it's a pill. I want to slip from the reality of what�s coming to be and I�m drinking each instant down like it�s cheap alcohol. Even this approaching goodbye's bitter taste won�t keep me from the intake of each memory, each moment, and this terrible mess that I�m making...but you, you�re the catalyst.
You�ll be the vain, you�ll be the pain, you'll be the one that I think of as I drift off the sleep. You�ll be the scar, the wishing star, the four-leafed clover I find at my feet. You�ll be the roll, the roll into me, the wheels of a car that drive off too fast. You�ll be the tide, you�ll be the under current and all of your thoughts will race through my head like a train that speeds toward broken tracks, God, I don�t know if I�m strong enough now. You�ll be the pain, you�ll be the... catalyst
This thing that I feel for you is so complex, it�s nothing like the movies or stories of love, but I want to feel it. Don�t you?
1:43 p.m. - 2009-08-01
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