�You can have the perfect lover, so don�t settle for less than what�s perfect for you.� Who is he? I thought, What is he like and will I find him before he, too, settles for less. So many years ago was that first conversation of sorts made. And now? Now... I found him... He and I, we�ve been tripping over ourselves about each other... we met a couple months ago and the entire time we've been fighting what we feel because in just two weeks he'll be leaving for school in Cleveland and I'll be leaving for Dayton. Who knows what could happen between the two of us if our circumstances were different, but as things are, neither he nor I can do long distance relationships and although we're crazy about each other, all we can do is walk away.
It's very clear that a week from now, I'll be going home from this safe haven I've been living in, two weeks from now he'll be going North, leaving for school. Three weeks from now I'll be going South... and in four, classes start and our colleges will become the foreground of our lives. That's what's ahead... and I can't imagine how long I'm going to be looking back, wondering how we managed to never kiss, never cuddle, never give into selfish desire... I wish time would move a little slower. One week from now may be the last time he and I see each other. Once we part ways, we'll find other infatuation and chalk this up, no matter how wonderful it is, to a summer romance that never had a chance to grow... I have no choice but to keep moving along the path I'm on, but god, I wish the sunlight would have a heart and let each night with him last a little longer.
In this world full of hate and fear you are the hunter. Night is coming; still you pursue.
9:54 p.m. - 2009-08-01
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